NOT JUST ANOTHER GUY - BLURBS IN LIFE

When Things Goes Wrong

GiL on 05/30/2008 at 9:55am (UTC)

I am sitting in my room thinking of all the mistakes I made words I did said... Things goes wrong primarily because we let our feelings get in the way which clouds our judgment and reasoning.And things can get worst specially if one problem gets on top of the other more weight more burden to carry...

If I said or did everything wrong I want to say I am sorry though the damage is done and probably apologies won't mean a thing anymore...

The only thing I can do is STOP but HOW?
Loving someone is not like playing a game that when you want to quit you just stop and leave...

Though I admit it's my fault I let myself fall No one else to blame but my stupidity and lack of judgment letting my feelings cloud good decisions and anger aggravate the situation.

I was a fool for wasting all those chances you gave me
I was a fool for shit talking and not listening
I was a fool for hurting your feelings
I was a fool for not thinking

SORRY will never be enough...
Things happen for a reason then maybe my reason is to wake up from this madness I put myself into again...

Time teaches us things the we should never forget but I did
Time can heal wounds
Time can make you forget
Time can make you recover
But time can never bring back what had just happened

Life is too short for us to waste...
Chances are rare so we should grab it...

A loser like me do not deserve someone like you

I am just happy I was given that chance to spend time with you
Lucky to have been given a chance to have memories to cherrish
Lucky to have been given the chance to love you...

Once you said to me that I was the BEST but, Being the best isn't good enough I guess...

Things goes wrong but instead of finding solutions I make the situations worst...
I am so sorry I LOVED you that much!

Going Home

GiL on 03/17/2008 at 3:37am (UTC)

I will be home in two weeks but I do not feel good about it.
Almost did but the turn of events did change the way I look at it now.
Im focusing on my goals to do and Im still going to reach my goal for this vacation.
Questions pops out here and there bombarding me with tormenting thoughts.
I really wish she shows up coz i will be truly happy!
Or I could spend my time with the new one and see if she makes me happy!
See if I could lie to myself while telling everything is ok!
I could also stay at home and be sober while reminiscing all the memories thats left of her.
I could stay out and spend all my money up to the last single penny i could put out.
Whatever the outcome is I know i will still be able to go out of work for a while coz i know im so burned up.

Ans As I Always Say In Blogging "Another Year Another Journey In Life!"

Sad But TRUE

GiL on 12/04/2007 at 5:47am (UTC)

I'm just wondering why did suddenly the world gets cruel at me? Why did everything I ever wanted I ever asked for in my life that I already had left me... Was it just a twist of faith? or I'm just paying all the wrong things I have done. Having regrets for all of those wrong decissions and people that I hurt along the way, mourning for my wrong doings! I guess it will never be enough as a payment. I just hope that after I ask for forgiveness then my faith will be right side up again.

I always look cool outside though! but, deep inside I am dying. Having regrets for losing Ghayle and what's important to us. Wish I didn't left her when she asked me to stay. I blame myself for all that wrong decissions! I wish that I did my all to win her back. Everything was so fast that it still puzzles my mind and torments my heart!

Sometimes I think it's a little unfair for me that when I straight up that's when it gets real ugly. All my hopes of having her back in my life has grown thin and so is my heart that is severely broken will never heal.

What else I could say to Ghayle but thank your for being a special part of my life!
Thank you for sharing Hopes and buildings dreams with me once!
I will surely miss those times that were together and thank your for all those sweet memories!
Thanks for sharing the love, care and sweetness of your heart to me!
For our special someone.... I wish I just had a chance to meet you and sorry if I wasn't there when you both need me! I was really hoping to meet you next year but your off to a better place before it could happen! How I wish I could just turn back time and not missed a thing probably this will not happen!

Depression always tries to kick in but the one whose causing it is the same reason who helps me to hold on and fight! Now thats she is truly gone I just hope that I can still manage to keep it at bay.

My tears meant nothing anymore than pain and regrets...

FIREWORKS

GiL on 10/15/2007 at 1:27am (UTC)

Loving someone is a lot like watching a 20 minute fireworks display… It can be…. Exciting; Emotional; Romantic; Sweet; Memorable; But it can also end as dramatic as it began. It fades slowly into thin air and as much as you wanted to keep on watching, there is definitely nothing you can do to make it stay. In the end, all there’s left is a starless night and the fact that in this life, some good things never seem to last….

WAIT FOR YOU

GiL on 10/03/2007 at 1:11am (UTC)

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing you would come back through my door.
Oooooo
Why did you have to go?
You could of let me know
So now I'm all alone

Girl you could of stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand.
Oooooo
And all my tears they keep
runnin’ down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I’ll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy(crazy)
Ooooo
How can you walk away
(Way) Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby

What will it take to make you come back

Girl I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that
Noooooo
Why can’t you look at me?
You’re still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying

Baby why can’t we just just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you’re telling me it won’t be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you (for you)
Ooooooo
Baby I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you
I’ll be waiting …

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